May 13, 2012 by Sarah
In my world there seems to be a very fine line between ‘focus’ and ‘obsession’. Once I (finally) start to focus on something, I take it to the extreme and want to do it every second of every day. It creeps up on me and before I know it, my focus has morphed into obsession. I’m not sure where the tipping point is, but I certainly recognise the symptoms once my balance is lost.
Over the past two days I’ve realised that the fine line has been crossed. I’ve started to feel that every minute I have free should be spent working on my 30 Day Challenge — and I’ve started to feel über guilty when I’m doing normal day to day stuff. I also don’t feel like I have any space/energy for normal stuff, so keep putting it off (the house is a mess and my mother wants to know why I haven’t called her in 2 weeks).
In an attempt to regain some perspective, I put out a shout out to my 30 Day Challenge coach Selina “Play Guru” Barker. Her advice? Portion control. So for the next few days I’m on a strict regime of only 20 minute microblocks a day on my play project. It feels bloody uncomfortable to back away from it all, especially when my mind is pushing me to do more rather than less — but I’m hoping it might just help tip the scales back in my favour.